Anger

Can't wait to go to the gym to release my anger. So much going on in my personal life, it angers me! I can't talk about it, I have to pretend like everything is okay when it's not. You know those pics where the whole family has to smile like everyone is happy, but it really isn't because of one person making stupid choices well that's my life right now. Ever since my daughter passed away I started enjoying going to the gym because it was a great way for me to release my anger. The anger I had towards others who judged me & told me negative things during my grieving. & yes eventhough I was a Christian & attended church every Sunday I did get mad at God because he took the most valuable treasure I owned, my daughter. I was angry because life to me seemed so unfair, so many women doing drugs, having abortions, abusing their own kids & God keeps giving them more when all I really want is to have my daughter & watch her grow. I have so many questions yet barely any answers. I honestly don't know what to believe anymore. The people that should be there for you, really aren't & yes that's including the "religious" people, family & friends in my family's life. Sometimes I feel like I don't believe in religion, I'm not Catholic, I'm not Christian I'm just me :) I do believe in a God, 1 God & I have Faith in God, but that's it. I lost a daughter, you didn't. I don't need your pity just respect me! May me I'm just confused with so many things going on. Please pray for my family.